January 1, 2020

start where you are.

on a personal note

did you know it’s a new decade? it’s 2020, time to make it happen, do all the things you haven’t done, get your life on track, get in shape, find a new job, leave that bad relationship. it’s been all over the internets pretty much since thanksgiving and tbh, it’s a bit much and creates a lot of anxiety and pressure. looking back on where you’ve been and reflecting is always a good idea, but you don’t really need a new year (or decade) to do that. you also don’t need a new calendar to change focus and begin a lifestyle change. in the words of arthur ashe: “start where you are. use what you have. do what you can.”

that being said, the last four months were exceptionally challenging for me. right after getting back from fashion week (and having an amazing time celebrating my birthday), i felt like i was moving at 120mph until friday, december 20 when i finally left work. that’s not to say that i didn’t have some wonderful moments this year, but to say i needed this break is an understatement. i had a conversation with my boss that friday about needing space to refill the creative well and it’s so true. it’s hard to be at your best when you don’t have the reserves to draw from. i was supposed to do a 5k at the end of the year that i bailed on (admittedly it was pouring and i didn’t want to get sick) and creatively i was running on empty. i had a lovely week in philadelphia with my family and caught up with some friends checking out some old favorites and new spots, and now i’m in seattle for the first time. even though it’s rainy and chilly, i’m enjoying it so far.

i just want to say this: i’ve been doing this since 2004 and holy s#*! that’s a long time. and i really appreciate everyone who reads, comments, likes, emails, DM’s (well maybe not all the DM’s haha!). i blog because i love it, not because i’m obligated to or because it pays my bills. it’s been a wild journey that has taken me to places i never thought it would, allowed me to collaborate with brands, meet some amazing creatives, and gained lifelong friends. is there anything you’d love to see more of? less of? please let me know. and no matter what it is you want to do, it’s never too late. and you don’t have wait until for a new year to do it. if i’ve learned anything in the last decade, it’s that life is short. it’s been 3 years since losing d, and you never know what the future can bring. so try the new thing or move to the new place but it’s ok if you want to just enjoy where you are for right now.